okay... this is a more deep and 'about me' post that isnt a questionaire , so yeah this is my first time i guess i would go into this so when you read this, just see this as getting to know me better and how i see things, ill start with 5 points, at first this was inspired when i read kim's "10 things about me" post and i really wanted to do the same but yeah i wanted to give it a meatie touch of mine. so here goes.
1. I love green
Hrmm having your favourite colour shouldn’t really have a reason it’s really just there but I would say that green has a umphhh that stands out to me and it does seem quite an earthy and unique colour, I like more towards the lighter side of green though, my other two favourite colours is white and silver/light greyish. Mmhmm so I would love to wear white and green together (well really.. just add a touch of green to anything I would love LOL)
2. My Appearance
Well lets firstly start with my hair, I am a person with really thick hair, if you were to brush my hair with your fingers it’s like a dog or a horse like really it is. I always hated it because once it goes long it would just get messy and I have a helmet head and if I were to try and “thin” it, you would have to thin it so much that I eventually end up with short hair again, urgh. I always liked long hair, ahh Korean drama’s and one day I will try and achieve that hair to see what it looks like but yeah I do somewhat get that mushroom look but it’s not the same! Never tsk tsk. And plus sides to my thick hair… nope none I have to use a lot of wax and gel to get it up, that’s why I would do my best to keep my hair natural looking and bed hair mmhmm. Now let’s talk about my really fuzzy eyebrows, I don’t really mind them at all, I like it since it’s like me now, rock lee YOSH! Guys cant really shape their eyebrows well they can… to make it clean… I dunno … this is a girl thing LOL however kim does really want to pluck my eyebrows :O hrmmm I also like to be clean shavened I hate hair on my face, also on my leg … LOL but … people don’t let me wax it since its not “manly” psst now please explain WHY is hair on legs manly? Whats so special about it? I would always shave my face before I go somewhere important where there is a chance someone will check me out *sits in corner*, now I will just talk random about my appearance, I have a I don’t know what you call it but a “bump” on my left ear which I have gotten from my father, my brother has it as well. Most of my joints stick out, and no its not cause I’m skinny well maybe but it’s my bone structure its most noticeable about my wrist, ankles and my knees they will stick out very odd compared to others. Now about bones sticking out my ribs stick out well the bottom part so I have that bump now that’s cause I’m skinny I guess LOL no pecs unfortunately. I do not have a girls body it may look like one but the curvature of my waist is not that significant sure I can fit into brenda’s and tammy’s clothes but big deal… I don’t need the curves waist for that! I would call myself fairly normal in appearance that I don’t have a big bulging gut sticking out I just don’t have muscle. My hands are short but smooth I don’t really use moisturizer I rarely do just natural I guess or I don’t play guitar enough or… do enough bricklaying … ahem ahem… what else… people do say my face is flawless but not really I do get pimples and stuff, I just get rid of it asap and also that my face is symmetrical? Not really my right eyelid is more droopey than my left, and I also have that Asian bumpy skin dealy (imflamed skin follicles blah blah blah) on my upper arm. That’s all I can think of right now.
3. Midnight routine
This one will be nice and short I guess, majority of nights I would cook something to eat before I go sleep, the main routine would be cook and then shower while the food cools down :3 because when I go sleep nice and clean my legs feel on my bed feel all smooth and non ickie and when my tummie is full all my energy goes into digestion and I get tired and sleep mmmhmm, people question why i am not fat, I really don’t know… just my high metabolism (which I somewhat dislike cause I want some meat so I can get some muscle hmph) but yes the thing I would mainly cook is a meat pie mmhmm nom nom nom nom yummie I might make one right now might of fact! (12:45am) LOL
4. Affection
People may have noticed that I show a lot of affection to others, they question on why I do that, well really… I do it in hope to have some affection back which is rarely the case I guess, well that’s really something that’s at the back of my mind but it does seem nice to consider or maybe I just really like want someone special to show some affection to me again (not really again.. I’ve been doing this since I was a teen let’s say as I’m quite a cheeky person in nature). There is more to why I do it. Well firstly I’ll say how I show my affection, nice and simple, I will touch you. Now there are certain degrees of my touching and it varies on how comfortable around you, because like when I really feel comfortable I will want to get really close and mmhmm, people do question my sexuality due to this, since its expected going to an all guy school I would be more close to guys resulting yeah more of that but then again most of the guys accept it :3 LOL oh yes the gayness of my school but yeah, and these guys would tell “why don’t you do it to girls? They will like it, it feels nice” (cause I do have abnormally soft hands for a guy) well I can’t since I wouldn’t be close to those girls! (Well… Brenda would be at this level for me to show a lot of affection) but then there are special circumstances in showing my affection, in that I will not touch a girl that I like, at least the way I do to others cause firstly I don’t want to scare them away… and if something does happen I want it to feel a tad more special once we both share the “love”, and it’s not that I don’t feel comfortable around them it’s just that yeah I don’t want to do something wrong (I do not like Brenda that way.) LOL but yes it’s quite the opposite for my signs to show my liking towards females, me touching them doesn’t mean I like them. Nuff said however in my head I just wish for it cause as I said in the beginning I would do it in hope for something back and if I wouldn’t get it back… it’s just about more heartbreaking? If it doesn’t turn out the best. Also if you show skin I will touch it definitely that is my first preference place to touch besides your face, so I would mostly touch/hold your hand or something.
5. Why I don’t talk
I have been a shy person all my life but this year I have grown a bit I guess after my previous relationship (I was ultra-anti-social in my previous relationship as I said in my previous point of my affection, I showed it to a lot of females then and now I have yeah… not a lot of them like then… I don’t blame my ex though I blame myself of that, well I couldn’t be trusted well it was just the way I am that I was close to females and had a girlfriend, sacrifices I made to make her feel special but mmm… its indeed hard to get someone’s trust again ), yes I’m still not the very best at talking, this is really only the case for people older than me and females that I have trouble talking to, like I use to have trouble buying canteen food. In my head I’m really afraid of what they think of me if I were to say something like if they would think I’m stupid or something, yes I don’t have a lot of confidence in myself but I am adjusting because I do not want to be whipped any longer. (I am a nice guy that could get easily abused but I will stand my ground now.) but I would say again that this would be a comfortable factor as well which I can’t only rely on since in life there will be many situations that I’m not comfortable but need to stand up for myself indeedie, so yes I am aware of this and trying my best.
so yes TO BE CONTINUED.
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